Not feeling too good this morning..man i haven’t been on tumblr for yearsss 0.0 but i guess last night made me start again.. i just need to get it out.. i woke up and I didn’t know what to feel or think, I feel like complete shit-a complete asshole for everything last night. I’m sorry I let you down I really am, I’m just as disappointed in myself as you are with me. I won’t do it again, I won’t put you through that. I don’t ever want to hear you cry again, that was probably one of the worst things to bear through. The fact that I induced those tears is … there’s no words for it. I’m sorry and all I can hope for is that you can forgive me. I hope I’m not disgrossting to you now LOL but yea im not disgrossing to you am I????

Oh yea the other thing I told you last night, forget about it even though thats kinda hard for you to do that now. But I did think about it quite a bit and I realized that its nothing.. I mean if I trust you, then theres nothing to think about, and I do trust you and thats all that matters. I thought about how I had an experience with this..except I was in your positon and the X didn’t like one of my friends. I didn’t like that feeling and I I know that you wouldn’t either. I don’t want to be like her and I don’t want you to feel what I felt when I was in that relationship. I want to be nothing like her, I want to be better for you and I want you to be happy and you deserve it. Im sorry for this too LOL I know i say sorry too much but I can’t help it. I feel better :D getting all this junk out of my system.