been awhile? yea. looking back on whats been going on these past .. whatever haha.. stressful man… Apps Apps Apss… ughh so stressful what up with that? i never get stressed out ever.. for any tests.. for the past three years and now I do? wtf. all my stress has been turning into tension in back.. horrible. I don’t know, the pressure of getting into a school I want to go to, the fear of rejection? or the fear of letting people down or letting myself down. I don’t know what it is but i’ve been worrying about it in the back of my mind. I just need to pull through these few months and I’ll be able to breathe a little. The one thing that has kept me afloat is Jenny, honestly without her I’d be a little depressed right now hahahahaha no joke. Through all this stress she still makes me happy and even though we haven’t actually spent much quality time together it’s still been amazing as ever, just like the first day we started going out. The one thing my cousin told me was that it wasn’t how much time you spent together but the actual quality of it that mattered. yea I just realized how true that is hahaha movies was awesome needed the break last weekend. :)) what else is on my mind? well i was on stumbleupon and I read something that made me realize something that I never did before. Well I don’t wanna go on forever about jenny… but hahah whatever, I realized that when I’m with her I forget about everything else that’s going on and I just focus on her and how happy she makes me. No thoughts. No worries. I don’t worry about mock trial and the tons of calculus homework I have waiting for me. She makes me forget everything else and I’m just in the moment when I’m with her… nothing else. sometimes I catch myself realizing it but today was the day I actually really noticed it. You might not know it, but you’ve kept me above water these past few weeks, months, whatever haha. oh yea and I love that we don’t fight, most people would say that’s B.S. or that you guys don’t learn anything without fighting.. that’s stupid you don’t have to fight to get learn about each other. we dont fight because we dont do stupid things to cause fights. hahhaa the funny thing is I would think its B.S. too if i heard this; but Thank you :) <3