sooo throughout this year ive been thinking about college and what im gunna do with my life.. ive been pretty flakinggg making decisions then changing my mind. one of those things was the military 0.0 yea yea the military “youre going tooo dieee” yea i know i MIGHT die. but uhh I seriously thought about it before YOU came along then i decided totally against it because you didn’t like it. but now its come up again and i seriously consider it, i talked with another army rep today and i talked with him for a good fifteen minutes. I asked him if he had been deployed: his answer, yes two times to Iraq and afghanistan. But you know what, the whole time i was talking to him.. I kept thinking about you and i wasnt scared if I would die, I was scared that i would lose YOU. I was scared that if i went, I’d lose you whether it be cause of my job or moving or the life was too difficult, whatever it may be. then i thought if i wanted to work for the federal gov’t… I’d move too… I feel selfish to do that to you, and yea its early to be thinking about alllll thiss but i know i want you in my life. If i was single I’d probably be going to college in another state, going to the armyy and then moving, then work in federal gov’t then movingg again, and I’d be by myself.. but you came and changed all my thinking , i wanted to stay in california so that i could stay near you, and…. LOOL chose “less dangerous” things to do with my lifee.. but death doesn’t scare me, losing you does.